how long will i go on
  turning my back and closing my eyes
  wishing you were here but pretening you're dead
  it's not so bad here in mediocraty
  no one expects much of me
  but i think of you and your thoughts of me
  i hurt so badly but i can't leave
    you kiss me when i'm sleeping
  when i have no will to wake
  it's will that keeps me from you
  it's a change i'll have to make
    will i ever be able to do the things my heart feels for you?
  am i able to stop the things i do not want to do?
  i want to hold the hand that guides me and loves me
  but this stubborn will has its hold on me
  misery is my cradle, i'm dying in my needs
  will providence shine his face on me?
    pick me up off this floor out of this mess i've made for myself
  my flesh is weak but my spirit is willing
  river's bridge of stones i'll fall water deep
  your whirlpool love will hold me still
  i'm safe in the cradle when i'm in your light
  spirit come and make everything alright